The Ugliest Most Beautiful Thing

The pain I feel within is as though someone reached inside and shattered the piece of me that pumps blood through my veins, 
I presume that’s the reason I feel borderline insane.
However, just prior to this feeling of insanity was that of pure bliss,
crazy how it was the same source of where I got the inspiration for this.
There’s no way you will ever know how you have changed my world,
introducing me to the ugly part of this most beautiful thing.
Creating on me the scars, that I will place a band-aid on and ignore the pain hoping they will heal,
falling for the next person that says they can cure those wounds and break my band-aid seal.
I have seen this ugly thing cause tears to flow down the face of those who did nothing but love it,
giving their all to something- like someone trusting another with fine china to come back and find they broke it.
However, after the tears and the fears, I must admit I have seen this beautiful thing give the gift of smiles,
after being wrapped in a hug or just talking to  another for a while.
I have seen it as the true reflection of God’s love for his people, though some abuse it, misuse it to make such a precious gift seem like such a pain,
when really it is one of life’s most precious things  -
giving someone something they can’t see or touch,
something of which you can never give too much
though you have to be careful who you give it to
because you don’t know if they can give it back to you
I have seen the ugliest most beautiful thing
all too many times
the beauty is its one of life’s most precious gifts
because once you stop falling in love with the idea of love
and God gives you a glimpse of what his gift is like from another human being
you will feel love’s true sensation
it is only then you will see love’s beauty and not it’s ugly imitation.